Limbo

Looked up the word in the online dictionary ......here it is

2. A region or condition of oblivion or neglect: Management kept her promotion in limbo for months.
3. A state or place of confinement.
4. An intermediate place or state.

Oh, what was #1 you might ask. And I might tell it was some blabity bla bla about the roman church and souls or what-not. Completely so way far off the map that i chose to not include it. But if it bugs you so much look it up your own damn self! :)

I think i was in in the #2 limbo for 9 years and then felt like i was in the #3 limbo for 3 years. But can one actually be confined without chains? Was i not choosing to stay and then "calling" it confinement so I could feel sorry for poor little ole me and my trubble wubbles. (Nat you know I can't sit on the inside because i'll be TRAPPED)

Im in #4 now. I like that definition. I choose to own it. Intermediate - akin to a stepping stone to beyond. 2005 is gonna be a good year. It'll be hard but it will be good because it will be the year i get outa limbo for good.

A Brand New Day

I did not please the man of the house today. He stormed off ~ I had not arranged all of the arrangements according to the plans in his mind. I did not force my oldest - my first baby boy - my 6 year old old "To get in the car this instant". What a wonder - after originally planning to go visit Philly with Daddy - he changed his mind when dearest daddy turned into a stark raving maniac. " I think I want to stay home with Mommy". "Well!!!", Yells the big bad wolf (the big bad wolf is actually an adult child with ocd, a personality disorder, depression, and some form of aspbergers syndrome) "What is happening? Aren't you going to help me here? Aren't you going to back me up????" " I believe you heard the boy", said I. The sad part is he actually wanted to go spend the day with his daddy just not with the big bad wolf. Well, who can blame him. Smart boy. We had fun - me and my two boys. Playground, hoover disc in the tree, card games, lights in the park, muffins and starbucks, disney movies, hugs, bath, bill cosby tapes, story time in bed. I love my little boys so much - I just don't love the adult one anymore. So i'll move on and begin a brand new day.